I've never felt so low. It's like I'm suffocating beneath all of the guilt, depression, exhaustion and anxiety. I've never felt so overwhelmed in my life, even all of the past times that I've been suicidal. It's like my chest is caving in and I'm numb at the same time. I want to sob my heart out, but I cant. I cant stop thinking about killing myself. I just want to end the pain. I just don't want to feel anything anymore.