whats the point in trying?

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by Gem_Healer, Oct 27, 2007.

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  1. Gem_Healer

    Gem_Healer Guest

    for me? none, not really.

    OK i got my boyfriend. Big deal. (sorry baby)
    That is all I got, and that is all that keeps me going. yet i cannot seem to cope with all this.

    Everything is getting to me.

    I emailed my Ex earlier, to ask for my belongings back. and he somehow managed to make me feel like crap. as always.

    oh well.
    im just a worthless whore.
     
  2. Destiny

    Destiny Member

    ....quote from you're last post....

    "I want the pain to end rather than my life.
    I am slightly happier now :) well much, i got a boyfriend now lol.

    Lifes tough. And i hate it. but i'm gonna keep trying. Else..."

    .........So something must have happened to make you feel that way am i correct? You can tell me but I'm not forcing you.......
     
  3. Gem_Healer

    Gem_Healer Guest

    Alot of things have happend.

    I was forced to stay away for the duration of my half term at college.
    I had to look after a spoilt brat.

    I had nothing given to me. and my cousin had loads of things.

    I was not allowed out with out the dog, or my cousin.
    I had to do all the washing up(i was at my grans) it was hell.

    And now tonight, i have to give my bed up to my mums bf's granddaughter.

    Meaning i got to sleep in the bed i was raped in. my mum doesnt care.

    My mum wishes i was still away.

    she didnt want to collect me yday night, after i got home. so i was forced to spend another night at my cousins. (cousin is 4)

    and i just hate it.

    oh, also talked to my Ex, he has a way of makin me feel like shit.
     
  4. Destiny

    Destiny Member

    ...I may never understand what you've been through but i have to say, you're a lot braver than me. If i was raped i would have killed myself a long time ago from the humilation.

    I came to this forum site because i felt like killing myself for real after all the crap that i've taken over the years, but now i understand that there are others worse than me out there, so I want to help anyway i can.

    I know I’m just a total stranger to you but I want to help others who have felt an indescribable pain. Here are a few lyrics to a foreign song I know:

    You’ve been hurt by unspeakable pain and sadness.
    Let’s carry each other’s indelible stains; don’t give up on living!

    I hold your hand…

    Will I end up losing them someday?
    I want to protect you and your fading smile, so…
    Even if the resounding voice calling me should wither
    Even if it gets erased by the wind along time..
    I will find you

    You’ve been hurt by unspeakable pain and sadness, but…
    Don’t say things like “I can’t laugh” or “I hate people.”
    There’s meaning in everything that happens in the unseen future.
    So stay as you are for now, I know there’ll come a time when you realize it.


    ..well that’s a part of it none the less. It spoke to me and i hope it speaks to you

    When an affliction happens to you, you either let it defeat you,
    or you defeat it. You can do what you want to do, You can be what you want to be. Remember, Positive thinking will let you do everything better than negative thinking will.
     
  5. saeyoon Chung

    saeyoon Chung Well-Known Member

    I agree with what "Destiny" said. He seems very kind and genuine..

    I think you need to somehow find a way to get rid of the responsibilities that are holding you back.

    It's all about prioritizing. We can't make everyone happy. We often have to take the path less traveled in our journey and possibly rub someone the wrong way. We all do at some point.

    Do what makes you happy.
    hope everything works out for you...
     
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