:sorry: to all but i :dunno: if i can be helped anymore. I go thru so many FN cycles of doing great and then feeling shitty that i dont even know whats up with me anymore. i am so dammed :depressed: most times that i figure why live anymore. They dont think i am bi-polar but i have majority of the signs of it. But they still want to classify me as having major depression recurring.....and they dont really want to help me get better after they let me leave the hosptial its like Cya. Your not here anymore so you are not our problem anymore, go tell your problems to someone who will listen....Yeah right i dont even have a damn councellor or a psyc doctor that will see me as an outpatient(have to be in hosptial for the doc to see me). Other then that i am swept under the fuckin rug like a piece of dirt. Now you know why its been so hard for me to keep fighting. I am to the point of saying fuck it....i have the means all i have to do is wait for the perfect time. Which probably isnt far from now.