So, i'm new to this forum - never posted before. It seems like a good idea. You don't have to read this, it'll probably not make any sense and be boring anyway. I don't think I want to kill myself, but sometimes I feel like it, everything just seems to be so shit at the moment. I've got a chronic illness, and the nhs don't want to pay for my medication anymore. I'm failing at college and have no idea what i want to do when I leave - even though theres a ton of pressure on me to choose. I've never had a boyfriend - or even kissed anyone, and no-one's ever going to like me coz i'm so ugly. I realised that most things in the world don't matter - who cares how much money you have if you don't have someone to love you. And I realised that no one will ever love me - so whats the point in living?