I'm so damn tired of everything. I'm tired of feeling like this. Everything I do and everything I see reminds me of how much of a total waste of space I am. The only things I can get right are screwing things up and hurting the people I care about. I'm tired of being angry all the time, and I'm tired of being so depressed I can barely speak when I'm too exhausted to be angry. I'm even angry in my sleep, I woke up today screaming and trying to strangle a pillow, which scared the crap out of my husband. I'm tired of having to lie about how I feel so people won't freak out. I'm tired of people expecting things from me. I'm tired of having to be the one who can take anything. Damn it, if I ever show an ounce of human emotion, everyone else goes to pieces. I'm tired of having to be the strong one when all I want to do is crawl into a corner and cry. I'm tired of losing people I care about and I'm tired of caring. I'm just...fucking tired, and the only things that make me feel better at all upset people. *sigh* 24 more damn days and I'm doing the Off This Mortal Coil shuffle.