I was reading about suicide on the internet, and i came across this site...i suppose right now i just want to talk about how i feel anonymously...to anyone reading this, thank you for listening. it started a while ago, me feeling this way. My parents fight constantly...about me and my little sister. And their relationship. I got into a fight one day with my dad, after he and my mom had already been fighting, and he told me he wouldnt care if he ever saw me again. I took that hard, because well, its just hard to hear that from your dad. He left that day, and i didnt see him for a couple days until he and my mom made-up. He came back, but we never reconciled our differences. Then a couple weeks later, my mom told me and my sister that we were moving and leaving our dad. She tod us we were going to live with my granparents for a while. Well, we stayed there for a few days. My parents made-up and we moved back into our house. Then, i made a huge mistake. I got into a relationship with my best friends brother, behind everyones back. She found out, and told me she hated me and that i had hurt her so much. I hated myself. That was one of the lowest times in my life. Everyone was against me and i only had myself. But, it was my own fault. After a while, she forgave me. We are currently best friends again. Then, i found out my grandma had gotten cancer. It was a huge blow to me, because we were close. My parents continued to fight, me and my dad continued to fight; he would say things that hurt me to the core. This was about the time where i started to feel like there was no way out. I hated myself. I thought about suicide at least once a day. I never tried to commit suicide though, just thought about it. School had been the only thing that was partially good about my life. I met a boy, i thought he was the nicest boy i've ever met. he listented to my problems and treated me pretty good. But then, he told me he had cheated on me the entire time we had been dating. I was devastated. I broke up with him. He started texting me, threatening to have people assault me and kill me. My school found out, and said i needed to go to the state police. The police handled it, but i still see him at school, and it just brings back all of these memories. I started thinking about suicide more and more. I wanted a way out. Things just kept piling up and i was sick of feeling so horrible all the time. I decided to tell one of my close friends about the way i had been feeling. She told me i was going to hell. She gave me this religious view and that i was a sinner and was deserving to go to hell. I didnt need that!!!!! I felt as if she had turned her back on me. That devastated me even more, because i thought my friends could help me. I loved them to death. This came as a huge blow to me. I dont know what to do now. I dont even know if there is a point to my llife. I just feel as if i have no one anymore, and that thought scares me. I think about suicide everyday. I cry myself to sleep. I dont know what to do anymore.