Hi All, I personally don't consider myself "suicidal". I've just given up. I can't see a point anymore. I've blown £10,000 in 5 months because I can't get a job. (Luckily this was savings). I've now got nothing. My GF has got rid of me, and seems to have moved on. Which is killing me. But I am the only one who knows this. I am drinking about a litre of JD a day, because it's the only thing that seems to dull the pain. I am 26 and everytime something seems to go well it fails. It's just now that I can't see a point. 26 and been messed about too much. 26 I should be thinking about kids, but apparently not. I don't find it hard getting with someone, it's just hard to keep them - or feel the same for each other. It just seems a pointless struggle. I've done drugs before, the last being E. I don't really do drugs anymore, and probably won't. ut at this age you just hope you'd have things sorted. The pain of everything is killing me. I can't sleep, I can't talk to anyone, as they just assume I am having a drunken rant. It feels constantly like someones shot me in the stomache and my heart just beats and misses people. The only thing I have is alcohol, and as much as people make out it does not help - it does. I've broken my hand because I just want to fight now. I'm losing it and have such thoughts about my Ex it's not right. It's just all on top of me at the moment. And it's going to get worse from here... What should I do?