what's the point?

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by Cattle_d, Oct 2, 2006.

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  1. Cattle_d

    Cattle_d Active Member

    I have been struggling through life, everyday.. (now i know that life is supposedly not easy for anyone) but i keep waiting for something to change, like for instance, i just graduated from college for the 2nd time, and i got my first job as a nurse in an emergency room, i went thru the training and i was all excited.. now i am working these horrid night shifts, and all i want to do on my time off is drink and sleep. WHAT IS THE POINT to this?? i really dont get it.. i always tell myself that i could always just die then it will all go away.. but i usually have some kind of hope that something might change. well, i dont think it will.
    any suggestions?
     
  2. ~CazzaAngel~

    ~CazzaAngel~ Staff Alumni

    :hug:


    If you think you are working so much you don't have a life or interests anymore maybe you should work part time, and drinking isn't really a healthy coping skill, do you have a therapist? if so you need to tell him/her what you are feeling and what's going on ect.


    I am sorry you feel so badly....I wish I could do more, if you ever want to talk I am here, don't hesitate :wink: :hug:



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    xx:hug:,
    Carolyn.
     
  3. joce

    joce Active Member

    Hi
    You have to stop working night shifts. I've done it in the past and it plays havoc with your body clock and just intensifies the depression. Money is always a big problem but I would find a job that's less demanding generally. When you suffer from depression you really have to be selfish and just think about what's best for you and find a way to cope with every day life. I find it's not so much the big problems that get me down but just every day things, like acting normal in front of work colleagues and keeping up a front. Try and cut down a little on the drink to start off with and then see if you can manage with less and less each day. Not easy, but it's just these little things that get us back up there. Night nurses always end up fat, spotty and depressed in my opinion. Hope you take a little step towards a better life this week.
     
  4. Cattle_d

    Cattle_d Active Member

    wow, you are totally right. i need to stop these night shifts.. i just started this job and i have been on nights 2 weeks now. i feel as though i have to try to stick to it for a little while.
    i think you are right about how the internal clock messes with the overall mood. i feel the exact same about everyday little trials and tribulations, like parking tickets make me want to kill something, and i do have a hard time keeping my front at work. wow. it is good to know i am not the only one, thats why this site is so good. yes i have a therapist and i will discuss it with him wednesday.
    thanks again for the reply.
    anna
     
  5. joce

    joce Active Member

    Anna, best of luck with the therapist. Remember not to hold back on anything and just spit it all out. I suppose you need to get experience before you can move on. I trained as a general nurse and really hated it. Then went on to do psychiatric training which was much better. Am now doing nothing which suits me best of all. Let us know how you get on.
     
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