So, i dont know why im bothering to write this out, no one will probably read it so therefore there is no point what so ever, just writing for the sake. Well, things are getting bad lately, nothing has changed i dont think. I'm just finding it harder to cope. How stupid is that? Everything is virtually over now i've been through the worst of it and im only just finding it hard to cope? I dont understand why? Is it because i was too understanding for everyone else? i dont know.. urg.. i dont know what im trying to say here. I have made peoples life hell and im sorry for that. I'm making him suffer too, i dont mean to.. i cant help it.. i dont want to feel like this, i just do? Ive thought about this for a while now, i feel maybe its time that i seriously got on with it.. gr.