whats the point? I go to school and am under so much pressure to succeed, to be the best, and that is made even harder by racial abuse that follows me around like a shadow...I go back home to relax, to get away from it all, but i cant as i am being watched. I cant be myself, the smallest mistake has massive ramifications and i feel like i am on some sick reality show where the sole purpose of my existence is to fulfill the audiences morbid pleasure. Whats the point? Tell me what i can look forward to? I could turn to my faith, but I dont have one...i figure that if there is some god out there then he has screwed up big time, or just enjoys my pain. They say that your sanity is maintaned by your ability to get away from it all, but i cant. If the meaning of life is happiness, and i dont have any, then whats the point in living? The answer is simple. There is no point. My only respite is death, and I fear that i may not be able to resist its call much longer.