I don't know what's wrong with me or my environment, but a lot of people around me committed suicide... My aunt a couple of years ago and my sister not very long after that.. My grandpa did it when I was 11 years old and I was so sad about it all, my grandma died awhile after that, she could not handle it anymore.. My best friend ever committed suicide this year and I still think of him everyday.. I hope so that he is happy now... But I still see it happen in my dreams, I was there with him and I could not stop him... I blame myself big time for him to die.. I didn't know it about my other family, I still feel guilty about them too, but I was there when my friend did it*... I had another friend which committed suicide not very long ago, about a couple of months ago, I really miss her too.. I just hope everyone is okay and in Heaven. I'm glad one of my friends survived <3 Can someone just tell me what's wrong that so many people I know commit or attempt suicide? *I will not go in further details because that may be triggering.