I have been feeling suicidal a lot lately. I don't understand why I feel this way. I talked with my therapist yesterday and told her how I was feeling. She always lets me talk. I can say things to her that I can't to other people. I told her how suicidal I was. She asked me if I needed to go to the hospital. I told her no, all they do is hold you for 72 hrs and let you go. She knows I have a plan, but I haven't told her I have finalized it. You see, I haven't wanted to live for a long time. I believe August 31st will be the time. I tried to commit suicide on this day several years ago. I feel I didn't finish the job since I didn't die. The feelings are so strong. I can feel it pulling me toward death. I actually feel relief knowing that it's going to happen.