I have been saying this all day what is wrong with me. I do not like not being in control. I need to have myself intact no dam tears. Yet they keep wanting to flow today why whydam it i don't want this.There is nothing wrong with me nothing i am just tired thats all. I don't want to feel this pain and i won't feel it whats wrong with me please i need this to go away please keep me in the present tense please i need to stay in control. ohhhh god i hate me when i am not in control i hate me so much when these dam tears try to come i want it to stop now. i demand it to stop now i am not in pain i am not there is nothing wrong with me i will say this a thousand times until the control is back i feel it working already there is nothing wrong there isn nothing nothing wrong.