I'm sure most people have read this story millions of times but I don't have a reason to go on. I'm 14, what the fuck is wrong with me? I've seriously considered suicide and if i'm not doing anything, or if no music/video is playing in the background I just feel REALLY fucking depressed. Usually it's just this kind of thing like, yes i'm depressed, get over it but when i'm doing nothing, the floodgates just open. I swear it feels like just waves crashing on you and you're hopeless to do anything. Sure, I could fool myself into thinking everything will get better but I remember all the tests and assignments I need and as I grow older it's just going to get harder. What used to keep me going was a person but now he/she passed away and I don't know what to do now. Answer me honestly. What's wrong with me?