I mean, the thoughts come and go - right? But at what point do you know that the thoughts are more than that? That you know you have to act, do something? How do you choose what to try first? Am I in crisis right now? To me it feels like a yes. But what am I doing about it? nothing. Does this mean I want help or I don't want help? Do I really want to try this or not? how do you know? am I just wasting my time even asking, I know its a question that cant' be answered here. Tonight, i don't know what to do. flip a coin?