I'm pretty sure I'm going to commit suicide eventually, life can only get worse for me as I keep being a failure, inferior, keep stagnating. I don't plan on committing suicide anytime soon but I really am sure I will. It just needs to be as quick and painless as possible for me so I guess no pills then. Its really strange on whether I should decide to commit suicide or not. I mean if I am so dead set on it, why don't I just drop out of school and forget about everything right now? I'm so confused, I never as a child thought I'd end up being so pathetic and depressed but neither did anyone else here either. I wish I wasn't the biggest loser to have ever lived. Maybe I should start on my suicide note, I'd want to make it really, really really long to tell my parents, brother and anyone else who actually cares about me everything about how I felt, liked, hated, etc. I don't even see the point of being here, been here over a year and still can't fully come out on why I am the biggest loser alive and want to take my life, nobody here knows me, cares about me, nobody would notice if I was gone, be totally honest, you really wouldn't, please don't lie to make me feel better.