I started at 15 when my foster brother was taken out of the house. And I would listen to KoRn's "Falling Away From Me" and I really related to this song. And I was very interested in the occult. And I would listen to Death and Black Metal (along others) and I would get pumped. And I lost some friends (not to death) and I dropped out of colleges. I was hospitalized 4 times for anger, depression, suicide thoughts and attempts. But now I very rarely get depressed.