I've recently realized I'm just going through the motions. Go to psychologist get therapy. Psych says you need meds, go do psychiatrist. Psychiatrist puts me on whatever the last pharma sales rep told her the new fucking wonder drug is and it works for a bit but makes my intestines feel like I've switched to a diet of pure Tobasco sauce. Then it stops working but the GI effects remain. I'm tired. I've been trying so hard and the only people who believe me are people who cannot help me. The doctors with their white coats stand over me like some idiot who just failed a test. So, if I can't get the help I need, is it wrong to just say goodbye? I haven't yet because of moral concerns. Right now though it hurts so much that I'm not sure if morals even belong in this topic. How can I consider right and wrong when I don't even know what's real.