when is the last time you cried? and what was your reason to? was it because you were misunderstood? was it because somebody had hurted you? was it because somebody you trusted suddenly turned his or her back to you? or simply because you finally realized something that in the back of your mind you already knew, but refused to regognize as true? I cried today. I didn't cry in a long long time before this. I have a thick skin and I try to put it to use. but this really really hurted. this was kicking me right in the face, making me realize what I dont wanted to realize. a lot of people hate me, if not everybody. I don't want to be lied to, I dont wanna be told that you're 'trying to sort this out' while you really dont. I dont want to know what you talk about behind my back. I can't handle that. I guess I already knew it happened, I just told myself I was imagining things. but now I have seen the hard truth that I can't deny anymore. people I once joked around with now wanting me to get banned... does anybody realize that maybe, I have feelings too? that maybe I'm having trouble of my own to cope with? I was trying to make conversation, I was trying to be nice... than I tried to go in TS and help whomever needed help. nobody needed it. they simply were discussing what horrible monster I am. why dont you do that in front of me, so I can see that hit coming and avoid it, maybe even defend myself. <Mod-Edit-If you have a problem with a member please contact a member of staff>, do you realize what you're doing? I know you're 'no where interested in saving my but', but can you please stop this and save my life?