Well what do you do when everyone just pushes you off as stupid? I've already talked to a doctor about my depression, nothing useful came from that except the option for medication which I didn't take. This weekend though i got so far down and actually told a cop I've been thinking of killing myself. Well he played me off as drunk I suppose and just fined me with the usual crap I guess, took me and my friends to jail for a night. But why doesn't anyone ever care, I said hey what if i kill myself and he just says nothing back. God that makes me want to kill myself even more, it's like everyone thinks I'm lying about having suicidal thoughts. I hope I die sometime soon whether it be accident or not and that cop be the one to arrive at the scene first. I hate people anymore. Sorry for rambling I'm an idiot I guess.