I am new here. I have had a very hard life. I am a 45 year old female. I married at 20 ....have a 25 year old daughter. My first husband was a drug addict who beat me, raped me, and belittled me. I divorced him and was left penniless with a young child. A lack of education forced me into housing projects and low paying wages. I have battled post traumatic stress from an abortion I had because I was penniless and didn't know any other options. I have never been on a vacation or experienced room service, hairdressers, new clothes, or lobsters......I struggle to get out of my bed and go to work. My life unfortunately shows in my exterior face. I am wrinkled where I shouldn't be. There is no HOPE for me to look any better. I was sitting at my desk this morning and three women that I prepare legal documents for stopped in to meet me. They seemed very nice. We talked about our daughters. I mentioned that I had a birthday coming up, and one of the women said, "Oh let me guess, you are going to be 57!!!!!" I said no....she continued and said, "Oh 55?" no...."53?_.....no.....when I told her 46 she laughed at me, I know how trivial it sounds, but these words had me crestfallen. Maybe I don't get proper nutrition or vitamins, maybe I LOOK like crap because my face is lined like a map, but I am a person....not an animal. Sorry to vent like this, but I am tired. Tired SO tired. Does anyone believe that there HAS to be something better in the afterlife? I have never used drugs but my face looks like that of a chronic meth head. If I had any $ I would just get a botox but that of course is not an option. This women's words makes me want to take a bottle of Xanax and sleep. There are tears all over my keyboard. Does anyone in this world have a kind word for me today? Thank you for listening & God Bless.....xxx