I don't really know how to start my topic.
I'm a 39yo woman, married, no kids (we can't have kids with my husband and this issue was the start of my depression).
I had also a good job until two years ago and I lost it, this was when my depression became really bad.
My life is a real chaos right now, both personally and professionally.
I don't know how to go through this because to me the only exit possible is death.
I'm completely lost and I'm also ashamed because all the things that are going bad in my life right now are more than 100% my fault.
And I can't go back in time and fix them, this is too late.
It's a shame too to be a grown adult and to not be able to find the courage to resolve all of your problems.
Things are going too heavy.
I'm a 39yo woman, married, no kids (we can't have kids with my husband and this issue was the start of my depression).
I had also a good job until two years ago and I lost it, this was when my depression became really bad.
My life is a real chaos right now, both personally and professionally.
I don't know how to go through this because to me the only exit possible is death.
I'm completely lost and I'm also ashamed because all the things that are going bad in my life right now are more than 100% my fault.
And I can't go back in time and fix them, this is too late.
It's a shame too to be a grown adult and to not be able to find the courage to resolve all of your problems.
Things are going too heavy.