I don't hate myself for what I look like, in fact I am rather pleased with my own appearance, and I don't mean to brag but alot of cute girls do look at me at school. It is the inside of me that I hate. I don't know why but I just feel like I am an asshole inside all of the time. I am completley aware that I have alot of mood swings, and sometimes I can hold a grudge over one of my friends for like a month. This started ever since highschool started. Am I just being pubescent latley? Am I just stressed out? I don't think that I am doing bad in school, I get mainly A+s, with the exception of algebra3. I don't know when this will stop, I am pissed off at myself for being someone I don't want to be and I can't help i. Recently I just found out that I was NOT gay, thank god, and that I was a heterosexual, thank you dear lord. And that was a huge weight lifted off my shoulders, but for the past few months, i guess I am just realy pubescent and the homrones are really flowing. I apologize for all of the disorganization and stuff in this post, I don't feel like editing it, I am just pissed off at myself for being an asshole all of the time and I can't help it. When will it stop!!