I swear someone or something has it in for me. Had to put my pup down earlier. V sad. She was my companion and protector through some abusive stuff and a protector for my p's family and all sorts of other things. Cancer. Again. Now I've to go get tests done and it's freaking me out. Well that's why I haven't done anything about it sooner. Im worried. But come on, please... A break. A few months of nothing would be very welcome. I realize I'm not likely deserving of such a request, yet I ask. When will I stop being stupid and give up the ghost and unrealistic expectations? I try... Brick wall.... Try again... Another brick wall and over and over and over. Stupidity. Plain & simple.