I've not posted on here for about a month I've started psychological treatment and the therapist is really nice but I'm scared to divulge my suicidal thinking, planning, and my confusion around this. I'm lost, I feel hopeless, I've no support out with the psychologist. My best friend is ill I can't burden him. The thought of suicide gets stronger, thoughts last longer, goodbyes are feeling easier to do. Thinking of ending it gives me relief, power strength, but will this be the case if I take that chance? I feel one foot is on the fence of existing and the other is on the "other side", which the thought of that fills me with joy. Is it easiest to struggle with life these thoughts and unpleasant feelings, or is it easier to let go. Will it stop???