When will it end?

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by ShadedSoul, Nov 22, 2007.

  1. ShadedSoul

    ShadedSoul Well-Known Member

    I've had enough, I'm exhausted both physically and mentally, but I can't sleep. I feel sick to my stomach, at least the shaking has stopped (thats a bonus). Why the hell do all the crappy memories come back to haunt me, I keep telling myself that the past is over and done with yet I just can't shake it. I can't stand to be alone, at any time the thought of it makes me sick to the stomach I try and avoid it at any costs, I cling to people just for the peace knowing theres somebody else with me, though not really being around those people for the company. I am well into adulthood yet I am still afraid of sleeping at night, I fear nightfall. I just want it to stop, stop the panic attacks, stop the muffled voices. (Note to my mind: Just give me a f****ing break already I've put up with this crap for far too long.)