Just tired of this feeling.. no way to describe it.. Tired of being.. Tired of hiding it.. Want to cry.. Want to Die.. But can I..? I see a future.. and Somehow.. I can feel useless.. despite all my talents.. When will it end..? When will I die..? Why cant I even cry..? Just trapped in my head.. Wanting to be dead.. Just all alone.. And living a dream instead.. But why..? Why cant I die..? I can name a few reasons why I should live.. but they all seem nullified by my head.. Nothings real.. Everything is real.. I have my emotions.. yet.. Its all a dream.. And the only way to get out of it, in this worlds term... death.