all my life i've tried to do what's right, always giving for the other person, always sacrificing my needs, my happiness to ensure my spouse was happy...i finally after 21 years had to leave the abuse i recognize now. it's now been 8 months since i left and i found now that i feel like there is nothing in my future but sadness. No real friends to talk to..i was isolated from friends all that time. I am alone all the time..i cry going to work, at work, driving home from work..at night...i can't grocery shop because the songs played inside make me cry...it's so hard to see anything in the future but pain and sadness..people at work say don't worry things will get better, well all i can say is that i've had enough, i don't see anything that can bring any joy or happiness to me. i keep thinking i need a reason, i need something...i have no children, i have nothing to care for and no-one to care for me..i feel utter sadness all the time. this past week has been the worst week i've ever felt. without a reason, i just want to give up..i have nothing left inside. i feel so empty.