And we still keep getting new members.:unsure: To all the newbies here; All of us old timers, forum buddies etc, have either walked in your shoes or know someone who did. You are home, here. Please, feel free to reach out to any of us, at anytime when you need help. Maybe it's just someone to listen to you. Maybe it's somone who can cry with you for a moment. We care about you, because we know your pain. I know I do. For I can't remember the amount of times I attempted. As a depressed suicidal alcoholic that lost EVERYTHING in my life, I know, not of your EXACT situation, but of that desire to end the pain. That desire to end your life. Friends, as they say, this too shall pass. I know...you are probably thinking, what in the hell is this guy talking about? Who the F is he, and how could be possibly know my pain will pass? Yeah damn right it will pass, when I am dead!!!!!! Well, again....I know. If those words were told to me, when I was where you are now, (And I think perhaps they were) I would have felt the same way. I didnt dare feel any emotions except for pain, hatred and despair. Those were the only emotions I trusted. They were real. I got out of it. I did. And so have others here. So, when you need a friend. Someone who truly understands the pain, someone you can talk to. Someone who might try and help save you from yourself, just call on us.