Hi all, just felt the need to post a rant about my life and feelings. I've been struggling a lot in the last few weeks. So much is going on and I don't always have someone I can share it with. I am in constant pain and waiting for the health system yet again. I have an apt next year in February to see if I have fibromyalgia, I hate this. Waiting is killing me, I don't have a life anymore. I can't sleep much at night because I lie down in pain and it's worse leaning on sore points. Usually there is no part of my body that I can rest on that doesn't ache if not hurt heaps. The my teeth are bad, happened really fast, so I've been seeing a dentist, manage to get a free one thru a special thing at our hospital, but this week I had fillings down and it looks like putty that is the wrong colour in the front of my teeth. I have the rich society system I live in. I have one or two more dentist apts left and that is to pull two teeth and do 4 fillings. I'm trying to study and get my life back on track after years of mental illness. My husband has prostate problems and so we are waiting for him to get an apt to see a specialist, might be cancer, who knows when he will be seen might be years. His mother is in hospital, she is 92 and had a fall, had to have surgery for partial hip replacement and we can't afford to go and see her. I'm so exhausted, worried, anxious, guilty, scared, hopeless and suicidal but I can't do anything about it. I've had 8 years intensive therapy with a top psychologist and now even thou I get the thoughts and feelings I can never do anything about it. I have a therapy barrier in the way and no outlet. I'm stuck stuck stuck. Anyway that's probably enough. Can't stand not know what to do and having to just be like this every day but there seems nothing else I can do.