It really isn't fun. I really like my friend, katie. Sadly she is a long distance relationship with some guy shes never met before. The guy she likes smokes, drinks, and does drugs pretty much just for attention. Katie is a pretty cool girl. More of the metal, scene looking girls if you go into those kind of sterotypes. We hang out probably 2x a week for close to 16 hours between the two times we hang out. She is just such an amazing person and it kills me to not be the one who makes her happy. And well she loves the bf shes with now but likes maybe 3 other guys, one is my friend. She doesn't know I like her and I hear about all the guy problems she has or how much she loves her bf. We flirt so much, sometimes in more kiddy ways like poking or gentle shoves or sometimes cuddling and hugs. Katie is moving about 150 miles to meet with her bf, whom out of respect I will not say his name. He is a loser and she deserves better. she is moving at the end of summer, and well I would tell her how I feel but I am literally TERRIFIED of the thought of losing her as my friend. I know I know not all people will stop being friends with some guy who likes them but wow, it is a really bad thought for me. I don't LOVE her I think but she means the world to me. And well, is one of the main reasons I made an account her. Sorry for the venting. And sadly im sure this is not the only time i'll talk about her here.