Some might know how my life has been for so far, but for those who don't I'll put up a short summary: homeless, friendless, jobless, broke. I few days ago I were stupid enough to actually fall in love with a girl from where I live now .. she seemed to actually like me too, but then when we went to a party together I suddenly turned invisible and she ignored me, and actually screwed another guy... earlier the same day she told me she liked me, and such .. and I had told her how I felt. Then I left, and when I got back to where I live atm I actually started thinking (the extreme amounts of alcohol started to wear off) .. and now I feel that the first time I were truly in love is when the girl seemed to be a player or something. I thought I had reached bottom in my life, but now I know that it's possible to get much further down. I really don't want to do .. it's the first time I am in love, and the girl shows more interest in a guy she met that night than me .. there must be something about me that makes people wanna hurt me. I have just gotten below bottom.