You ever have someone you get so attached to, it feels like you're stiched to them? So that when they're gone, they're not just "removed" like some appendage but like when they leave part of your body has been ripped off too? How do you replace the things they did with you? Replace their role? You get so used to them and so dependent on them when they're with you for a longer and longer time. Pretty soon, you figure they'll always be there. It's like since the beginning of your memories they've alwasy BEEN there even for things when they weren't. And when the day comes that they're gone, you realize that your whole life that revolved around them, even if you're arguing and bickering, has just had a black hole shot into it. I'm sorry I'm posting so much. I just hurt really bad. I'm at work, I have to go in 5 minutes and I feel like I don't have the strength to make the commute home. Hah, "home". Not even our home, but my parents. I'm getting treated like a maniac. a Criminal. For that reason - the injustice, the mistreatment, the slander, the taking shots with everyone she can talk to - I'm not going down without a fight. HELL NO. ... although it still hurts bad. I thought she was my friend. Guess I'll go home. In the new home I have, I won't have internet for awhile, she took the wireless network adapter I had so I'm gonna have to wait till I can afford one. Sigh. See you guys around tonight, maybe.