so tired of not sleeping correctly because of fucken back pain all the time, my sleep aids cant work when my brain wakes me up and i am in agony. so why bother to live sober when i am in fucken pain 24/7? retarded doctors need to stop giving me non narcotics for pain, i need something that can keep me asleep for 6-8 hours. but nooooo, they wont because i am a addict, what a load of crap. so now i am sober and i still wanna <edit methods>, so nothing has changed. cant exercise because of the pain, cant do diddly shit.