I've had a rough life. Everyone always thinks I have it easy. But its the complete opposite. Let me introduce myself. Im Rachel. A 15 year old in my sophomore year of high school. And can I just say my life is a living hell. My parents have been divorced since I was 10. And that was the start of a different me. First time I started cutting was last year,I stopped for a bit and picked up the habit again last month. My mom has this boyfriend. We all HATE him. But she doesn't understand that. Hes a complete douche. Always has these negative comments to make about me/my body. As in calling me fat. And I'm extremely insecure. I've always been bullied about my weight. I'm not skinny. Im 174 Ibs and only 5'5. So I do have a lot of extra fat hanging around. I get it. But waking up everyday and being reminded of it kills me. And this douche gets it right on. Lately things have been getting worse. Anything that happens in the house is my fault so I get bitched at just about everyday. Even if its my brothers and not me. Last month I was seriously considering ending it. I was to the point where I had my mind set on doing it. But I didnt. I wish I did. Instead I cut. Over and over and over again. My arm is filled with them. I cant help but take it out on my arm. Like tonight.. I made 7 new marks.. each because of the douche bag. He tries to block out my dad from my life. He tries so hard to overpower everyone. And it got to me. I want out. Im trying to move out and in with my best friend. My mom doesn't like that. And I'm not staying here with them for another 2 years. What are my options? Is there a chance for me? Or what..