I'm dying of suicide. It is a cancer that manifested itself in my heart and mind and I'm desperately seeking treatment. I don't have health insurance. I work two full time jobs and have no time. I have almost as many bills as I have income and am getting calls from the collections agency my ex-therapist sent my account to after I told get I could no longer afford to keep seeing her since the insurance I had at the time wasn't covering my visits. I'm hurting, and I'm afraid. I want help but I'm overwhelmed and cant afford to check into any type of mental care. The only free mental clinic I know of only accepts medicaid patients, and I make too much to qualify. What can I do to get help? I'm terrified. I need a psychiatrist. I need a break. I need a hug. But I have nowhere to go.