I came here because I was about to kill myself and in a final desperate grab at straw I came across SF and sure enough some responded they said welcome we care talk to us. So i figured why not So I tried best I could had no idea what to say or how still don’t I am hurting so bad I don’t know who I am and I cant see tomorrow and for the first time in my life I shared some of what I have been keeping secret did not know what else to do to connect with the world I felt very vulnerable, stupid confused. Anyway some responded and said if I wanted to talk I must just pm so i did but some were so caught up in there own pain which I can so understand that I could not share with them then the rest they all seem to have this standard reply we care be safe thinking of you but they seemed so cold. I finally decide to talk but I could not wrap my mind around everything they were saying I have been brain washing myself for so long I must have screwed it up responded incorrectly because they just stopped talking to me no one was responding to my posts I felt like I was invisible, I tried to post to be there for others but in the end I am just feeling worse than the worthless useless pathetic individual who came here. I guess just as in life I f*&%$ up again. I am sorry for being unable to communicate for not saying the right stuff for needing to hear something a million times for wanting someone to respond I am just lost and was just looking for some hope. I am sorry I truly am for wasting time for offending and disappointing.