I don't belong here cause I'm not suicidal. But I am too depressed to go to the depression sites. Sometimes I just want to talk with someone who can understand. I just want to know how to live life in pain every minute of every day, only looking forward to sleep when the pain goes away for a while. I know things can get better, but I've been in such pain ever since I found out my wife had been contaminating my dinners to get rid of me that I just can't even think straight. I worked hard to build a career that my mind can't even handle any more. But I believe God saved me for a reason and I just have to hang in here. Anyhow, thanks for reading.