I feel like a huge pussy, people in this world most likely have worse problems than I do, but I just can't help feeling the way I do. In my eyes, I believe I have a bad home life. My parents are unsupportive, and my family members are too busy taking care of their own life situations to care (though it is not their fault). As far as my mother is concerned, as long as I pay my rent on time she doesn't care how I get the money. I just graduated high school. I don't have much money. I've felt suicidal tendencies for a very long time. I just don't believe that I have a future. I feel as though I was meant to die, whether it be from natural causes or from suicide. I feel like I shouldn't be alive. I'm in a particularly deep hole. I want to be successful. I don't want to be sad, and I don't want to live this way. I have two jobs, but I just cannot save up enough money to go to college or even get a car, because of the hours I work and the money I spend on rent. I feel trapped. I have nobody to talk to, all my friends have left for college and are living a new life. They cannot help me. I do not have enough money to go to a Psychiatrist. I want to go, I want to be helped. I have so much free time to myself, it would be so easy to die. I don't want to die, but I feel like I have to. Like no matter what I do, I will die. Where do I go from here?