Where do I go from here?

[alexandra]

I never done this before, post something in a forum or even search for these kind of site. I just don't know what to do anymore....I can't stop crying and I can't see a way out...I can't talk to my friends or my family.....I just want to end it all...

 

[Shadowlands]

What's wrong? Why do you feel this way?

 

[Beret]

alexandra hun :hug: understand it feels miserable when we feel that we want to cry all day and that noone understands us. even so you feel like you cant talk to your family and friends you might be amazed how understanding they probably are. hope you will get the support youre looking for here at SF and you wouldnt have to be embarrassed to post about it what makes you feel so low. We want to be here for you hun :arms:
Beret

 

[alexandra]

I read some on the postings on this website and my problems don't seem half as bad but I feel as if my whole world is crashing all around me and that there is no way out. My husband after 4 years married and twelve years together has called it quits with no real reason. I have built my entire world around him since I was 17 and I feel that all I am is him and that without him I am nothing. He has finished our marriage without a real explanation and seems so uninvolved and unaffected, one day he loves me the next he can't wait until I move out. How can you go from loving someone one day and hating them the next when nothing drastic has happened?

I am not coping as I have no idea what has gone wrong. I am pulling myself apart wondering where it all went wrong and wondering if I could said something or done something better.

I can't talk to my family for fear that they wil hate him and to be honest I want to hate him but I can't even though I know that it sounds pathetic. I'm not the kind of person that likes to talk about problems I normally just bottle them up inside but ......I'm just over life....

 

[Shadowlands]

Probably something has happened between you and your husband, or at least to your husband, but he may not be telling you about it. Firstly, you should try to dig that out of him. Secondly, don't kill yourself now even if life feels miserable. Sometimes affection of another can be the world, but the again perhaps it is not that important when it is not there. You will get over it, or at least the pain grows less. Give it some time.