hey, so im lost. completely and utterly lost and so far from the person i used to be i dont even know who i am anymore. my problems go back as far as i can remember but my breaking point has come from the end of the most amazing relationship i have ever known. my ex boyfriend has broken up with me after a 2 year relationship because we were too serious. i did everything while we were still together to give him his space and it still wasnt enough. i feel like im always giving so much of my self and it just never comes back. so we broke up. a few days later he said he wanted to get back together. the next day, he informed me he has never said anything like that and we werent back together. so i started to date someone else. i dont think i was really ready for it, but i think i needed it. he came back and said he wanted to get back with me but he couldnt because he was so mad i had been with someone else in the meantime. we fought all night and eventually got back together. the next day at work (yes we work together) he acted pretty normal. when he got off work he texted me and told me it wasnt going to work out because me being with someone else made me a different person. i had already broken it off with the other guy that morning. so now im just as low as anyone can be. i hate my life. the other guy and i made up and are still gonna sort of see each other but hes moving to dallas friday for a job. PEOPLE ALWAYS LEAVE. i miss my ex so much and im so sad that one person who has been able to fill that void is about to be taken from me as well. why dont i get any say in my life anymore? why do i have to sit at home at night and just cry till i fall asleep? or stare at pictures and old gifts and feel the memories tear me in half? i just want to die. and this is why im here. i dont know where to go from here. i seem to have only one option.