What should I do next? 2 days ago I attempted to take my life (I was stopped by my SO before any physical harm was done). I'm at a loss at how to continue living, I dont know what to do, how to have fun, how to enjoy myself. My main issue is that in half an hour I'm going to see my SO for the first time since I tried to take my life. I've talked to them on the phone, it went well, but I'm nervous to the point of breaking down right now because I dont know how its going to go. I dont know what to say or what to do, people say I'm not me right now, so how can I tell them anything if its not me? I dont want to lie to them, but I dont know how I feel about them, I dont know how I feel about anyone. They love me and I dont know what to say if they ask if I do too, I dont want to break their heart again. (My first try with anti-depressants caused me to feel distant from everyone, which I told them and they took personally). I really just dont know what to do.