not quite sure why im writing this but to be honest i dont know what else to do, and maybe getting it off my chest will help. i dont know how much more i can cope with at home, im ready for walking away from my marriage and my 4 girls, why, well, ive always been on top of the kids as far as discipline goes, whats right and whats wrong etc, when i was drinking i was inconsistent which didnt help but its ok since ive stopped drinking. ive had almost 3 years of hell with my oldest, misbehaving at school, getting into trouble, abusive the list goes on. now they seem to fight constantly, on friday the 2 youngest were kicking hell out of one another in the street, then yesterday the 2 oldest were doing the same at home. my husband is always at work and when he is here he just more or less says what do you want me to do. not helpful at all. ive spoke to him and the kids but nothing helps. im at the end of my patience, i just want to walk out the door and away from them all. im currently trying to stay off alcohol, going through therapy and trying to get my depression stabilised. i really cannot take much more and feel in danger of totally losing my mind. i really need help but dont know what else i can do.