I don't know. I really don't know what you can even define as "depressed." I can tell you one thing, I'm not happy. I think I've mentioned it before, or people see it, it's just... everything is so sad to me. Everything. I'll get quiet with friends, groups, doing anything, and just think. I think about how I'm just not anything. How my family isn't a family. How much I hate living here. How much I devote myself to friends, boys, whoever, and how much I never get back. What is depression? When does it end? Am I depressed? Or am I just really really sad and lonely? Can I even call myself depressed without medical input? I by no means want to go to a doctors... I just need advice. Hear me out-I never expected to be sad for that long, I just was. I just am. I just cry. I just can't take everyday life. I can't. I'm too tired. I'm too busy. I'm too bored. I'm too scared. I'm too nervous. I'm too anxious. I'm too much. I'm just sad.