Where does someone who doesn't belong anywhere go besides 6 feet under?? I've tried everything, I just can't go on. I feel like an ugly, useless, monster. I'm 28, i have no job, live with parents, don't have ANY friends, I have bad feet/real sweaty, vericose in legs, i weigh 240 pounds and I'm only 5'8, I have 0 confidence, I'm ugly, I'm useless in bed with a woman, I'm stupid... I tried many jobs, someone eventually starts making fun of me and I quit. So I can't keep jobs. I live 1 hour away from the <mod edit - methods>. I go through these episodes where I pack my car with all my junk and drive to los angeles to try to be homeless and escape, then I end up coming back home in a few days. I try to run away but I just can't seem to. I feel now at 28 my only option is<mod edit - methods>. I'm just so lonely, I just want to talk to somebody you know. Maybe when I pass over I'll have tons of people to talk to. Anyways, thanks for listening.