Where is my safe place? Where can i go where none of these thoughts none of these feelings will come? Where can i be happy and be a normal teenage girl? Is there such a place? Will i ever find it? I don't deserve it..why should i be able to find it? Am i even looking for it? No.. Why? I don't care about getting better.. to a point i guess.. because i have to get better for Ronnie.. my best friend.. i promised i would.. But when will that happen? What if it's not possible?..