Ok, not really sure where to begin, there's really a lot of stuff that's been troubling me lately. I'll start with the most recent stuff. Lately my friends have been abandoning me (keep in mind that I am 18 years old, and still in high school). They have been going to parties, throwing parties, and generally having a great time in life, without ever making the effort to include me. They even go so far as to make a point of discussing their parties in front of me. They barely even talk to me anymore, and when they do, it's only to brag about things the know I have yet to experience. These used to be the only people in the world who ever cared about me, and made me rethink doing something terrible to myself about 2 years ago. Now that they refuse to associate with me, I fear that if my insecurities reach a breaking point, I will have no one to depend on. Also, their ignoring me has made me feel even worse about problems I am already struggling with, like the fact that I am heavy and not good looking in the least. Of course there are many other things that have been bothering me, but I'm worried that if things get any worse, I will not have any safety net to fall into... what should I do?