I'm feeling really scared and vulnerable. I just went to my phone to text a friend and realised I have pushed everyone away from me and I actually have noone left to turn to. I now realise that if I go through with it I have noone to miss me - that alone makes me feel so lonely and makes me think this life isn't for me! I can only just write in here so no way I can call a crisis number, does that mean only the inevitable is left - I dont know!! Anyway don't actually know what I want from this post - sorry!!