I really don't know what to do anymore.. Went to party with my family last night.. Was nice going, but by the time I was to come back I grew despondent beyond belief.. Don't blame anyone.. Idk what to say. Why am I like this, why an I never respond to peoples taunts? Why do I go into these crowds where I can't hold my own and play verbal cat and mouse? And why am I so nervous around these perfect people who brim with confidence about their perfect lives??..