the thoughts are taking over. everythings in a downward spiral. everything is coming together, all the plans and such... I dont want to do it necessarily. I see no other way. I know what should be done. I see no reason to even try. The fact is I'm stuck with me no matter what I do. No number of years in a hospital or therapy sessions can help me. No drugs they give me. This is in no way a chemical imbalance, it is just my life. I see no reason in stopping my suicide. I see nothing that can help me view myself different. I fear what will happen in a year when I turn 18. I need to rid the world of me so that none of these thoughts will progress any further. It is for the good of your corrupt mankind. I cant live here, not for me. Dont say I have a lot ahead of me, I dont. trust me on that one. I dont know why i bother on here. I suppose, i just want some feedback, someone who will listen to me before I go. I know I need help. I know it wont help. Its alright, just another week. Shame that I wont get to celebrate my 17th birthday....two weeks from now on the 27th.... If I fail, I will end up spending my birthday in a hospital. More incentive to not fail I suppose.